Jennfur posted the other day on Facebook a link to an article called 15 Things You Should Give Up To Be Happy. I read it and it’s just one of those things you sit there and nod at the whole time. Yep, yep, yep, yes that too. I’d say it’s about control – both giving it up and having it, which seems counterintuitive but isn’t.
I know I struggle with this a lot. I don’t like feeling like things are just out of my control. But by giving up your need to control things around you, you learn to have control over yourself – the only thing you really can control completely. I’ve been getting a lot better at this with the stuff going on in my life and my slow recovery from very bad depression. Your mind really does have all the power and while it may take a lot of work to keep your emotions and thoughts in check, it’s amazing the difference it makes when you achieve it.
[Adam Levine:]
My heart’s a stereo
It beats for you, so listen close
Hear my thoughts in every no-o-o-te
Make me your radio
And turn me up when you feel low
This melody was meant for you
Just sing along to my stereo
[Travie McCoy:]
Gym Class Heroes baby!
If I was just another dusty record on the shelf
Would you blow me off and play me like everybody else?
If I asked you to scratch my back, could you manage that?
Like yea fucked up, check it Travie, I can handle that
Furthermore, I apologize for any skipping tracks
It’s just the last girl that played me left a couple cracks
I used to, used to, used to, now I’m over that
‘Cause holding grudges over love is ancient artifacts
If I could only find a note to make you understand
I’d sing it softly in your ear and grab you by the hand
Just keep it stuck inside your head, like your favorite tune
And know my heart’s a stereo that only plays for you
[Chorus:]
My heart’s a stereo
It beats for you, so listen close
Hear my thoughts in every no-o-o-te
Make me your radio
And turn me up when you feel low
This melody was meant for you
Just sing along to my stereo
Oh oh oh oh, oh oh oh oh to my stereo
Oh oh oh oh so sing along to my stereo
[Travie McCoy:]
Let’s go!
If I was an old-school fifty pound boombox (remember them?)
Would you hold me on your shoulder wherever you walk
Would you turn my volume up in front of the cops (turn it up)
And crank it higher everytime they told you to stop
And all I ask is that you don’t get mad at me
When you have to purchase mad D batteries
Appreciate every mixtape your friends make
You never know we come and go like on the interstate
I think I finally found a note to make you understand
If you can hit it, sing along and take me by the hand
Just keep me stuck inside your head, like your favorite tune
You know my heart’s a stereo that only plays for you
[Chorus:]
My heart’s a stereo
It beats for you, so listen close
Hear my thoughts in every no-o-o-te
Make me your radio
Turn me up when you feel low
This melody was meant for you
Just sing along to my stereo
Oh oh oh oh, oh oh oh oh to my stereo
Oh oh oh oh so sing along to my stereo
[Bridge:]
I only pray you’ll never leave me behind (never leave me)
Because good music can be so hard to find (so hard to find)
I take your head and hold it closer to mine (yeah)
Thought love was dead, but now you’re changing (yeah) my mind (come on whoa)
[Chorus:]
My heart’s a stereo
It beats for you, so listen close
Hear my thoughts in every no-o-o-te
Make me your radio
Turn me up when you feel low
This melody was meant for you
Just sing along to my stereo
Oh oh oh oh, oh oh oh oh to my stereo (it’s your boy Travie)
Oh oh oh oh (Gym Class Heroes baby!) so sing along to my stereo
Seriously. I’ve turned to it a lot lately to comfort me or pick me up. Pandora has been pretty nice to me lately too when I turn it on, pulling up songs that have just the right lyrics for how I’m feeling or what I need to get me out of the blue – it’s really quite uncanny. Made a few playlists on Spotify for certain moods too which has been awesome.
It’s amazing the impact a song can have on you depending on what you’re going through.
Seriously. I didn’t sleep well, been too stressed out, so after about … four hours of sleeping with constant waking I said fuck it and got out of bed. Got myself dressed and quietly went out since the hubby was still asleep. I did a 1:1 jog:walk then a 2:1 jog:walk for 30 minutes, a short stint of yoga and yoga specific ab work, and push ups. Then I went on about a 6 mile walk where I ended up doing a really big circle at one point and then went to the storage facility. I needed to get something out of a box and since my stomach had time to settle from the yoga stuff I did as many traditional situps as I could (which honestly wasn’t that many, pretty sure I stopped around 50 cause my tailbone was screaming about the concrete floor.
Was still early so I popped into Wendy’s for their fresh lemonade and made a few phone calls to handle some business while I waited for the thrift store to open. Funny enough I saw a lot of things there that I had donated in the move recently and I ended up spending $5 on a workout shirt and a lace poncho thing (both of which fit great and are in new condition).
After that I trekked over to the dollar tree, didn’t find what I want, so kept going to the grocery. Picked up a big bottle of Naked’s Green Machine since my stomach was complaining and I’m on an almost entirely liquid diet right now (solids haven’t been settling well). After that I walked home.
So all in all I walked about 10 miles and jogged maybe 3/4 (me and running haven’t gotten along since middle school track team and not wanting to have to carry an inhaler… plus the whole sports bra issue makes it a real pain… literally). And I’m not even done for the day lol! Bout to shower and bus over to Walmart (since I know Joshua hates it and avoids it like the plague, I won’t bother asking him to come). I’ll be out another few hours since public transport around here takes forever. (Which he doesn’t seem to mind since he’s entertained with anime and a game, it’s kind of like having an easily entertained cat)
By the time I get home again, who knows what I’ll have the energy to do. Running on little sleep and not a lot of fuel here! But I don’t feel sleepy or anything, just sort of worn – I guess that’s alright. I’ve done pretty good the last few days. Haven’t slept more than 6 hours but I’ve gotten a lot done so I haven’t minded as much as I normally would. (Guess I don’t really have the energy to think about how tired I am lol)
My feet do hurt, but it’s not a need to be soaked pain just had to get off them for a bit. Maybe I’ll give them a good soak later tonight cause it’s back outside tomorrow morning too.
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